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Collective Sick
04:54
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You hear the far off misery.
So numb to what happens. So numb to what happens.
For all this death, you care even less.
No one you know. They’re not your friends.
And I watch powerless. I’m holding my breath.
I look on without say. Without hope the worst will end.
Time apart witnessing good turn against itself.
Learning just how it feels to know the inner hell.
And what is it we take away?
Nothing, no one here is well.
Unbearable is not bad enough. We would never save ourselves.
Widespread sickness, the selfish will of all.
Collective decision: the problem won’t be solved.
Even though it’s no one I know.
Even though I’ve not one friend
I will be grateful wrong still gets under my skin.
I watch powerless. I’m holding my breath.
I look on without say. Without hope the worst will end.
Widespread sickness, selfish will of all.
Collective decision: the problem won’t be solved.
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Disgust for the Whole
04:07
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So long, my faith in human life.
We never do right. We never do right.
Justice arrives, if at all, too late
It’s a cruel, cruel wait. A cruel, cruel wait.
My God…obliterate.
Farewell all faith in human life.
So much death it takes before we try.
What special someone here has to die? Who?
We never do what’s right.
Look at the leader, never letting go.
All the good they say they do but don’t.
All the help they could give but won’t.
I’m disgusted with the whole.
Never bought for a moment in the goodness of soul.
Who next has to die? Who?
Why so much death before we try?
Have we ever been for life? No.
We have never been for life.
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Remember This Age
03:14
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An awful shame to witness
Even God turns away.
Lonesome soul drifting the dark,
I need you to be saved.
Just look how far you go.
How deep the blade sinks in.
Pretending you’re not lower than you’ve ever been.
Where far enough is death.
Where spill your veins fills up your head,
So deep the blade sinks in. Lower than you’ve ever been.
Take me back, I beg you! Remember this age.
I have the faith your looking for,
When life was not all pain.
Take me back, I beg you! Remember my face.
The love you were deserving of has not and will not change
Take me back, I beg you! Remember this age.
I have the faith your looking for,
When life was not all hate.
Take me back, I beg you! Remember my face.
I have the faith you’re dying for.
Believe it’s not too late. It’s not too late.
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Undecided
02:48
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I won't lie.
For years I wanted to die.
And several times, yes I did try.
Leaving all that blood to dry.
But I'm better now, so it's alright.
It's not true, but I'm doing fine.
Say good morning, wish goodnight.
Say and do...Just get by.
And my passing days are a crime,
Because I never made up my mind.
The others all see the light.
The others all commit to life.
Still breathing, I don't know why.
Tell me how did I survive?
Here you all commit to life.
But I never could decide.
No, I never made up my mind.
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You Will Suffer
05:13
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You chose. You of power. You alone.
You pay no mind as our agony shows.
It’s the way you could say yes, but won’t.
I see my hands gripping your throat.
This hatred had no choice but to grow.
And far reach the roots below.
The cruelest parts have taken hold.
I taste the blood of shadow.
Oh the murder in me… There is murder in me.
Your worst nightmare will be my thrill.
I will make sure you have your fill.
A true torture before the kill.
Enjoy myself. I will, I will.
Oh the murder in me… There is murder in me.
Handing over my soul. Love no longer calling home.
I taste the blood of my shadow. The cruelest parts have taken hold.
You will suffer. You will know. All good all mercy all let go.
You will suffer. You will know. The cruelest parts have taken hold.
Oh the murder in me… There is murder in me.
(You will suffer. You will know. The cruelest parts have taken hold.)
Oh the murder in me… There is murder in me.
(You will suffer. You will know. The cruelest parts have taken hold.)
Oh the murder in me… There is murder in me.
(You will suffer. You will know. The cruelest parts have taken hold.)
Oh the murder in me… There is murder in me.
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Never Ever Known
03:35
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True, so true. Afraid I am of you.
And I don’t know what to say.
I’ve never known a friend to stay.
Nobody is some lonely one, hidden amongst the graves.
And just like him I patiently wait.
Just like him, I know the living aren’t safe. No.
You’re not safe.
I tell you, take whatever it is you mean to take.
Hurt me. Hate me. Have your way.
Have your way.
Because I’ve never ever known a friend to stay.
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You Shun Me
03:06
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Say so what to the need and the heartbreak you see.
Easy ignoring. You’d never reach your hand to me.
You won’t bother. Always so against.
To know me seems an unspeakable demand.
And there’s no convincing you. I give up my plan.
You shun me and I will never understand.
I will never understand.
What did I do so wrong?
This world already won.
But this world still wants me gone.
Shun me, you shun me gone.
I don’t belong here.
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Plea (a-cappella)
02:32
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Can you take me away?
Can you take me away from here?
Take me away.
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To Bystanders
03:41
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All the good I could've done this world
If my life in it had any worth.
If the pain ever mattered in why we hurt,
Oh, the good I could've done this world.
But you’ll say’ nothing could be done for her’.
Blame me. Why I didn’t speak up first.
You are never helpful when things get worse.
You are not made better from what you learn.
But I don’t want to stay. And you don’t want me all the same.
You don’t want me and I don’t want to stay. No, I don’t want to stay.
Kind words won’t do as saving when all light has disappeared.
An ever present danger the longer I’m left here
With visions of violence - Of that day I’ll feel no fear.
An ever present danger- when all light has disappeared.
All light has disappeared.
An ever present danger- when all light has disappeared.
All light has disappeared.
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Owned
03:23
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I hear her say “Old you are now and how little has changed.”
Everything I say I want is owned only by the moment.
I won’t be given back. I hate where I’ve been, where I’m going,
And I cannot bear where I’m at, where I’m at.
And I hear him say…“If you just erase yourself, If you just eliminate all traces,
The years will be forgive. You’ll be sent to a better place.”
Witness the darkness overtake. Be still.
Darkness will overtake.
Ahhh, Ahhh, Ahhh, Ahhh
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In Need
03:07
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If you let me know more, I will begin to see.
I’ll be taken away. I will begin to dream.
Desperate to distance myself from this grief.
I won’t get what I want, but I take what I need. I will take what I need.
And your good soul has been waiting. Your good soul says I’m worth saving.
You lift me up, over and through. Never mind my unwillingness to move.
Never mind I’ve been using you to choose what to do. What to do…what to do…
Your good soul has been waiting, but I am not worth the saving.
I won’t get what I want, but I take what I need.
I will take what I need to be done.
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No Choice
02:09
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Long sleeves for today.
And we all know you are sickness,
In distance, in loneliness, one empty locket round your neck.
But what is our silence except saying it’s alright?
Except saying you are mindless, with no choice but to survive?
I saw your soul in a mirror once,
It’s light never renewed.
Gray in all you’ve never done and all you’ll never do.
And all you’ll never do.
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Ready
02:27
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Shadows move in and become one with the darkness.
A hint of the truth we’ve all waited for.
The motionless, beloved hush at our very core.
The breath taken gently open door.
Desiring more than all that’s been given before.
A hint of the truth we’ve all waited for.
Your way to see inside.
Appreciate this ache.
For the moment it’s know that you must let go,
You’ll already know your way.
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Promise Me Forever Ends
03:36
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When right or wrong is black and white
You’re too afraid to pick a side.
So many more will die.
Pretend you don’t know why.
And I care more than is good for me.
A nameless body with no reach.
I’d like to say we can be saved,
But no one here cares to change.
And I don’t mean to stay.
The future is not mine.
It hurts too much to be hopeful
And cuts too deep when I try.
So I smother every flame in the dark
And saw in half my willing heart.
A godless cold runs deep within
Promising forever ends.
I swim in frozen waters
Feeding on all the ice
Knowing of no such way of roots
Or reaching toward the light.
But I will play my part.
My blood drawn leaves a mark.
The godless cold runs deep within.
Promise me forever ends.
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Allyson Marie Cincinnati, Ohio
Allyson is a self taught musician / singer-songwriter who has written and produced her work independently since 2007.
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