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Hollowed Out
03:32
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My hand holds blade at throat.
Say I will, I will but won’t
Wanting so badly but don’t.
Solve nothing. Be still I’m told.
What will it take to step out of my head?
Hear myself scream I’m better off dead.
Yes I said what I said. Midnight is sinking dread.
By sunrise, tears of red.
I bleed through and forget.
And the truth is in our ruin.
I tell you and my heart beats alive.
To witness the wrong we have chosen,
Accepting no one here survives.
No one survives.
I hollow out the promise from those eyes.
Accepting no one here will survive.
Hollow out the promise from those eyes.
Finally the wrong made right.
I hollow out the promise from those eyes.
The way it’s always been has to die.
Hollow out the promise from those eyes.
Finally wrong made right.
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Have It Be Told
03:36
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Have it be told, I would sell my soul to see the end.
The world we know in ruins.
Where no hope would remain beneath for starting over.
The fading light grows colder.
And soon the choice will be made of nothing more to do.
No more we can say.
Soon no more pretending we don’t get in the way.
We get in our own way.
And I dream what it will take for death chosen over change.
I dream what it will take to admit no one will be saved.
No one will be saved. Choices we’ve long since made.
Problems only we create.
So have it be told I sold my soul and I see the end.
The world we know in ruin. I see the end.
I see the end.
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Take It To Heart
03:54
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So, I don’t fit in your world? No, you don’t fit in mine.
And I don’t have to settle or explain to you why.
Breath spent doing so is a waste of time.
You’re fixed view isn’t worth a dime.
So I will pass you by. You’re worthlessness defined.
Poorly lit soul, knowing no better.
Thought you could fly by just holding a feather.
Thought you could hurt me when you’ve never mattered.
No, you’ve never mattered.
But I do and I know who I am.
Falling, but always I know how to land.
I know just who I am.
To serve this peace in mind, you will keep to the outside.
In my world I fit just fine.
And I will live my life.
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Faithfully
02:57
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I let the world alone. I can’t tolerate the tone.
Or the simple walking by, watching one another die.
A selfishness too sour, and thoughtless is not me.
So my plan has a practice - anticipated grief.
I waste no more effort clearing space.
All that grows, devoured by the flames.
Say things change for better. No they don’t.
Better for this world, we simply won’t.
I promise you’ll know nothing of it.
This life and death alone.
The fall I take - the body soul break
Is where I’ve placed my hope.
Last be my selfish hour. So forget forgiving me.
My plan has years of practice
And I follow through faithfully.
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You Take This World Away
03:49
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Further is the test. Deeper is for best.
Overwhelm in waves. Pain replacing pain.
A carved wrist of screams in defiance.
You take this world away.
And the burning from my veins goes my fury and my hate.
How I worship - I crave. You take this world away. Away.
I once bleed to a death-like cold.
Spilling red by the moons full glow.
Was peace-filled, free of sorrow.
That night alone still has a hold on me.
I once knew peace.
But I’ve lost enough. I offer up the rest.
My life is of no consequence.
To be here feels so wrong.
To be here when I want gone. Gone.
So wrong.
To go further is best.
Deeper for a death.
Overwhelm in waves.
From here take me away.
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Anchor-Less
03:44
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Be careful the overflow of once a bleeding heart.
Slipping on frozen blood.
There is death here in the dark.
Is it in your head again? Are you on the edge again?
Yes I am and deciding is clear when there is nothing left to fear.
Nothing and no one keeps me here.
Nothing and no one needs me here.
So why not set free my soul?
Escape my cell of flesh and bone.
Enough with these lowest of lows.
The other side is home. I go home.
Nothing and no one keeps me here.
Nothing and no one needs me here.
Deciding is so clear. There is nothing left I fear.
Nothing and no one keeps me here.
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Treatment Fail
03:32
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Was it name or the face I forgot first?
And I don’t care if any of them still walk this earth.
Far from the wreckage of people in my head.
Leaving them behind is my least regret.
But these days want to stand too tall.
They get you lost in the work - in the church of it all.
When real life will demand you bleed
In the dark, in the dark as a silence scream.
As a promise hurts to keep. As in faith no one believes.
But I believe we will always endure the worst.
It’s embraced. Like a curse, we breathe constant hurt.
This pattern is death, death to unlearn.
But I did try for what it’s worth.
So if I wait at the door, don’t let me in. Never again.
Finding more cause here is not the mend.
And I offer you only disappointment.
The waste I’ve been.
I’ve given up -given over to ruin.
Goodbye. Say the end.
I’ve given up -given over to ruin.
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I'm Disappearing
03:40
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Picture taking parts of soul.
Wasting ways. All skin and bone.
I give you time. You take me in.
So different now. Where have I been?
Understand what things you can.
Skim the truth as compliment.
Pretend I’m who I say I am.
It’s good enough. Call it love.
But you know I have a secret.
Faces beneath this face.
Something is off key.
You see where I fake.
It disturbs and you’re afraid.
So you stay right where you stay
With words you fear to say.
Just accepting I’m too far gone now to saved.
You understood what things you could.
Question deeper, no one should.
All skin and bone. The wasting way.
I’m disappearing sure some day.
Sure some day and I can’t wait.
I can’t wait.
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The Monster Is Human
04:50
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I breathe the ashes of heaven and earth.
I dream a new hell you will learn.
New ways to watch you hurt
And all this life is worth near the end.
When the bright dying light will show
Where heart has never been.
A wrongness of blood and bone.
The monster is human.
One God never held so close.
I mourn the day we were let go.
For all the damage done, I would
Destroy all that we’ve become.
When the dying light hangs low
Fill us with fear and regret.
We did nothing with what we know.
Now watch the worst happen.
I dream the death of our shadow.
Ending the cruel paths we follow.
Ending blindly worshiping the ghost.
In flames, all soulless and cold.
The bright dying light will show
Where heart has never been.
A wrongness of blood and bone.
The monster is human.
When the dying light hangs low
Fill us with fear and regret.
We did nothing with what we know.
Now watch the worst happen.
The bright dying light will show
Where heart has never been.
A wrongness of blood and bone.
The monster is human.
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All We Are
03:38
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All we are is blood and bone.
This time between of flesh and grief
Mean nothing going home.
Feel nothing like a soul.
Mean nothing going home.
All we know is loss and cold.
Where cruel excuses speak so bold.
Courage won't see the light of day.
The hero within has no say.
All we have is far too much and never ending need.
The truth is always bleeding through.
Pretend we've never has a clue
What better we could be...is tortured and begs to die.
And never once heard I love you.
We never gave one reason why.
Why? Why? Why? Why?
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Exit Interview
03:09
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Cutting losses, speak my bones.
If it’s my fault, you should have known.
But who ever sees me? Who is warm to the cold?
I’m here dying all alone.
Feel the thought tear from inside.
Having to lie and lie and lie.
I matter more kept in the dark.
Waste what remains of my heart,
Because who ever saw me? Who was warm?
Who was warm to the cold?
I was here dying all alone.
You never saw me. Never warm,
Never warm for the cold.
I was here dying all alone.
Burning bridge, you are a gift.
I hurt and want nothing more from the end.
Burning bridge, you are a gift.
I hurt and want nothing more from the end.
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Death of Loyalty
03:00
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The slow roll. A tank over bones.
Hear the crush. I‘m beneath alone.
Aware enough to watch it roll away,
But I’m too undone to feel the pain.
Cut through. Removed.
Exposed with deep disgrace.
My sacrifice meant nothing for the years I gave.
My very life meant nothing for the years I gave.
Unforgivable waste of time.
This world I’ve come to hate
Will never change. Never change.
This world I’ve come to hate
Will never change. Never change.
My sacrifice meant nothing for the years I gave.
My very life meant nothing for the years I gave.
Unforgivable waste of time.
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If Courage Holds
02:50
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Light-less eyes. Vacant soul.
Breath abandoned. Weak I grow.
Bleeding empty. Fold these bones.
Take me, Darkness. Take me, Cold.
Others witness. I know they know.
Easy as ever, letting me go.
Easy as ever if courage holds.
If fear forgets, we say I chose.
And joy will follow. Greetings from hope.
Good will return once certain I won’t.
So I bleed empty, breathless cold.
I become the darkness.
See me home.
I let go. My courage holds.
My fear forgets. My story told.
Fear forgets. Story told.
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17. |
Where I Followed
04:26
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Annoyance when you speak
Removes all doubt from what I think.
And what do I think?
Wasted where I followed.
What we’re doing, no one knows.
And regrets fester inside.
I’m sorry I was so kind.
Can’t I share this flood of blood spill
Beneath the knife? I was too kind.
Wasted surviving these lows.
Try again collapses these bones.
Long lost where I followed.
What we’re doing, no one knows.
Poison from the deepest root
will find the farthest reach.
Spread in all ways, the driven flame.
The chaos we feed. Our chosen need.
A system built to crave irresistible hate.
We are sick and still taking full bites.
And we love handing over our lives.
Our lives beneath the knife.
I regret wasting time.
I regret I was so kind where I followed.
What we’re doing, no one knows.
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Allyson Marie Cincinnati, Ohio
Allyson is a self taught musician / singer-songwriter who has written and produced her work independently since 2007.
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