1. |
From the Base
02:00
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Fragile but ugly
So by all means – break
Everyone will be angry if you wait
Never blessed by a breath of wings above
They know how cold you are; no one expects your love
No one cares for what you’ve done
And no one fears your setting sun
The bass notes we’ve become with scars upon our strings
Snap away – find a death in change
You would take no sound at all
Over the same
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2. |
In Descent
03:14
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Time now
Ring the bell
Allow it to end.
My constant
Descent
Into
…Hell
I don’t have it in me to try and fail again
All hope has gone
I’ve wanted a promise, I want peace.
Put to rest the better I will never see.
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3. |
Worn
01:54
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I’m through.
Emptied of my strength
I don’t care if you want me anymore
And forget the freedom I’ve waited for
I am ghost-like and worn
Faithless at the sight of my open door
The freedom I’ve waited for…
I want no more.
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4. |
Hoping
03:46
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Hoping despite myself
“Suffer a little longer for me” They say
And in silence I remain
Resigned—there is no life within as I fade
Cold and heartless inside
Here I don’t survive
There’s a fear of my fear
They’re afraid of my pain
And they watched me unmoving
As my will began to break
Every purpose I could find
Has fallen dead from the sky
It won’t be long now
Far upon the endless night
For the nothingness beyond all light
Listen for the sigh,
It won’t be long now
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5. |
Parting
03:59
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“You’ve gotten all you can” he said.
“And now we are at end.”
But tell me, is it your faith or does it just make sense?
When I walk away does it mean everything will have been fixed?
Or maybe we’ve gone as far as I can reach
Little further beyond is complete silence…
Or maybe you keep from me a more simple truth –
You’ve gotten all you can from me and we have to be through
So how could I mention I’ve fallen from the sky?
How could I admit I still needed more time?
What a waste I’ve been…but you won’t see it bleed my eye
And I still love the other side
And you spill the rest of life in me
Once we’ve said goodbye.
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6. |
No Way Out
03:16
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Don’t say his name
He won’t save me now
And I’m not asking for faith
I know there is no way out alive
This edge must never move
For all I’ve done, for all I do
The edge must never move
I have a plan, I know my shame
I show my face
Sharpen the blade
You can’t save me now
There is no way out
They fear the lost once dark has fallen
All we want is peace, a breath of ease
We all want never to need
Here, a thin line between us and the other side…
But the shades of night are far more kind
And lifeless is far more mine
I find my place
I dig my grave
You can’t save me now
I know there is no way out alive
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7. |
Goodwill
02:13
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Unnoticed and unneeded...
The daily nightmare your fears
Could never dream.
And would your future dare have me
Continue to live as I know not to be?
For one breath – one instance beyond all defeat…
How can hope be worth anymore my belief?
I am the only one left to deceive –
The only one who has not given enough
To keep.
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8. |
In Doubt
03:57
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If you knew me – if you heard far enough beneath
You would not think to have your way in doubt
Truth ever unwilling to allow…
There is no love here
No life beyond the sound
This patience is un-sharpening
The weaker I become once I look up and try to breathe
With your faith in me – it’s your faith in me…
Weighing down my wings
There is no love here
No life beyond the sound
Truth unwilling to allow
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9. |
Decide the Memory
03:22
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Broken deepens from the surface.
With one more hit
In pieces the face will fall away.
Though burdened, whatever I can I
Pick up again and try
No matter how long I’ve been without time
And you love me enough to let me lie.
Just follow along – I should be fine…
Knowing just what goes on, but
You don’t see it in my eyes...
And don’t listen,
Yet if you are to hear the heavy sigh
You must love me enough to pass me by,
And don’t worry, it will never feel right,
But understand, where I rest
Has long been within sight.
Accept me and decide the memory
You can love enough
To let me die.
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Severed
03:32
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My face, the fist, pressed against
I feel the tear heavy and slow flow down my wrist.
Denied again,
I split open and resent all I once loved.
Always thrown against this wall.
Always thrashed upon this ground.
My patient breaths have long bled from the page.
I’m far too finished to fear failure or care about shame.
I have my way in letting go,
I won’t leave time for you to know.
Shade my soul black sun.
Find your way to suffocate me.
I have had enough.
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11. |
Inside Out
03:05
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The desperation it gives
It doesn’t care if I live
And the hopes you are so taken with
I’ve refused to take in
The meaning is so weak
It cannot stand alone
It cannot see, hear or speak
It cannot ever know
Wasn’t I stronger than my shame?
Didn’t I forget their names?
There is no spell within my eyes
I see it’s all a show
And those watching already know
They’ve turned me inside out
The ways I’ve let them keep me down…
Those better reasons I’ve not found
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12. |
We Are Distant
04:02
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My dear, my love.
Or the one I’m supposed to love.
The one I don’t know enough.
What have I done? What have I let happen?
When you reach I don’t feel you near me.
I don’t see you crying.
I don’t hear you bleed.
I don’t hear you in me.
We are distant,
But I would never forget the reason.
How far we’ve gone
And what we have become.
I would never forget the reason
My dear, my love
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13. |
Taken From
02:34
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No one cares
Contentment fades
The soul decides what blood it takes
From these conflicts and problems of everyday
From my living for the grave
Confused, aren’t you? When I appear
The one with a voice always too low to hear
She knows there is no more to say
You’d die before you’d ever change
And they want all from me; stripped worthless at their word
I take enough from the hurt but I beg for the worst
Smothered within this fog
I’ve watched unmoved for far too long
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14. |
Shed Light
05:50
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There is no getting by
I can’t close up a piece so unwoven
I’ve lost time
And have no place in words in which to hide
I know of no way to make this right
I can’t ignore how much was pulled away
So far from and with no trace
And I have no choice but to stay
To either die or die for my mistake
Never thought it could pass
How I didn’t know I broke open and out of control
Why couldn’t I see? In need enough – a reach in all directions
No matter their light they are of worth
Certain as worse becomes ruin
To believe you do better when you hurt
When the bleed and burn are the only
Things left that seem to work
Bringing peace, to feel anything but nothing just to breathe
For whatever it still means
I’m for the ending – drained with all wants and
Weakened for change
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15. |
You Have My Wings
03:22
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Say yes.
Take the risk.
I’ve heard the fear in these moments.
But I am beyond your death.
I rose from the fall.
I know where you have been.
Led to the beginning of end.
Trust no one else; you’re losing time.
Patience and dear faith will not save your life,
And if love is here it has chosen not to try.
Everlasting truth we find –
I carry the sky
And you will always have my wings to fly.
You will always have me.
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16. |
What I've Made to Give
03:00
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Don’t pretend like fools,
We know the truth.
Beginning is just as bad as the end.
Born into one long and lonely death.
No love I held was taken
No light you gave was kept
Hope and purpose came and went
Don’t make me try again
You don’t know who I am and never did
I am unforgiven human disgrace
For all that life is, I can’t embrace
What I’ve made to give
Is not what it takes to live
No love I held was taken
No light you gave was kept
Hope and purpose came and went
Don’t make me try again
You don’t know who I am and never did
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Exhale. Sweet Relief…
How many other souls agree?
How many others wonder what it means
When breathe has left your lungs
And nothing in you wants to
Remember to fill them back up
And when between those seconds you
Wonder why you ever fought
You anticipate the drop
As the heart slows to a stop.
Then before you even know of the choice
You breathe in, so sudden, startled by the noise
As if tugged at the neck by a leash like a dog
Years pulled to attention, forcing you right along.
How many of us beasts are angry at being moved?
How many would fight back if there was a will to?
But as it is, we are weak. Tired of need. Tired of grief.
Tired of wondering, Why still breathe?
Or is it only me?
How many others see what I see?
How many others wonder what it means…
Or is it only me? Wondering…
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Exhale. Sweet Relief…
How many other souls agree?
How many others wonder what it means
When breathe has left your lungs
And nothing in you wants to
Remember to fill them back up
And when between those seconds you
Wonder why you ever fought
You anticipate the drop
As the heart slows to a stop.
Then before you even know of the choice
You breathe in, so sudden, startled by the noise
As if tugged at the neck by a leash like a dog
Years pulled to attention, forcing you right along.
How many of us beasts are angry at being moved?
How many would fight back if there was a will to?
But as it is, we are weak. Tired of need. Tired of grief.
Tired of wondering, Why still breathe?
Or is it only me?
How many others see what I see?
How many others wonder what it means…
Or is it only me? Wondering…
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Allyson Marie Cincinnati, Ohio
Allyson is a self taught musician / singer-songwriter who has written and produced her work independently since 2007.
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