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You Answer
02:46
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I know you and what you do
Better than I’ve ever wanted to.
It’s awful what you reach for.
You are there closing the door.
You read the signs.Be quick, decide.
You find what I’ve hidden in mind.
You are the deep shade covering my eyes.
My blood drawn in the night…in the night.
I know you want me hopeless in grief.
When I cry for help, only you answer my screams.
And love me most when I fall weak.
Whispered words, you instruct, I believe.
I know you. You own me.
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If Only
04:10
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If Only I never knew good…
Say I didn’t know wrong from right…
I could do away with life - with people and their lies.
So hatefully unkind, and I’m sick of letting by.
I’m sick of playing nice.
I would show them what it’s like
When hell burns through from the inside.
How fine - just to see it in their eyes
Where death so terrifies.
What I pray for all the time.
My forever dreaming night.
To feel the cold and feel the bite -
What I pray for all the time…
Tomorrow need not try to go beyond the understood.
I don’t know right. I am no good. No good..
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In Waves
03:18
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Thrown in waves, in mist and shade.
But I’ll stay - find any way to part with my grief.
The cold way of reality… The sick pain of my screams…
A high price we all pay with every breath we take.
And even though there are no chains you cannot call this free.
Even with steady gaze our eyes grow weak.
Knowing better is always beyond our reach
We’ve learned never want beyond our need.
And still granted no inner peace.
My problem is you. Your problem is me
And the volumes of truth we’re afraid to speak.
For the time we waste going over mistakes
Death will find its way with ease.
We will end pierced and bled.
Among the most deserving of.
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Your Heavy Heart
03:53
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(I see it now)
Just folding into darkness.
Locked up. Loosing the key.
Reasons I don’t deserve to gain what I still need…
I see it now. You have my face
Without your love. Without your grace.
Your heavy heart is my lost faith.
And I alone to blame.
(I see it now)
Just folding into darkness.
Locked up. Loosing the key.
I see it now. You have my face
Without your love. Without your grace.
Your heavy heart is my lost faith.
And I alone to blame.
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Disbelieving
03:20
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‘Be still, the night will pass’ you say.
Tomorrow begs for me to wait,
But you mistake my hopeless way -
This kind of pain - a choice one makes.
Never mind how much it takes.
An emptiness no one escapes.
How much longer must I wait
And witness my will within break?
And I know you think you’re right, but
If I deserve to survive beyond the constant fight
Why do I feel I’ve gone as far as I can try?
Never mind how much it takes.
An emptiness no one escapes.
How much longer must I wait
And witness my will within break?
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Brink
03:57
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Look beyond it and pretend you’ve never seen
The weapon in my hand. I’ve taken all I can.
This pain - I’ve taken all I can
Please have mercy. Don’t ask my plans.
Don’t give me visions. I wont understand.
I will never take the chance.
Never needed what comes next.
No matter to what lengths I reach.
Home is the slow slipping beneath.
I will take your word. I have the faith.
Shameless - ruined - going God’s way.
Tomorrow means nothing more
Than for my need to out lead yours.
Made so well for distrust, there is no saving.
There is no love.
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7. |
Never Had A Say
03:24
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A winter has come. Numb to soul.
Heavy - painful - slow you breathe.
Tired of all human need.
You are decided. You are headed home.
You understand I’ll be left here alone.
And I will not have a say, but I love you anyway.
Eyes of nothing but cold - of weak and dying hope.
My hands reach for you. Please take hold.
And even though this time you don’t,
I still can’t accept you won’t.
My heart sis full of faith.
I pray you’ll choose to stay before I know you’ve let go
You understand I am here alone.
And I never had a say, but I love you anyway…
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Creature So Wrong
04:25
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Again I go. Knotting the rope.
Sharpening claws. Tearing out throats.
Collect all the unworthy souls…
Death to every beginning known.
A creature so wrong. I’ve been alive too long.
Let the worst come, be my reason to breathe in the ash.
I face my past and burn for all I’ve done at last.
And the bits of God left in me tell me to take hold.
Piece by piece - rise from beneath.
With new wings I unfold.
New willingness to hope - new dreams I am shown.
Starting over strength has grown
Starting over, again I go.
Starting over, my strength has grown
Starting over, again I go.
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9. |
In the Wake
04:26
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The news of it tore out my heart
Once safe in its cell.
Over is the life. Over with unwell.
Over is the losing fight to save oneself.
It broke us all. Our living pain.
A death so unexpected. So out of place.
It’s how we should feel. Its what we should say.
Then look on from the distance.
Admit no mistakes.
But what if there was a way to tell?
To be brave enough to imagine the hell..
Behind such honest eyes and light, a soul too
Good for a world of this kind.
Each of us own a moment's ringing of the bell.
Asking what it would have taken
Would anything have helped?
Cruel it is to all make sense; over with unwell.
And loss - this ache of grief is all we are left…
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10. |
The Fight You Give
05:24
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Think you’re better now with a found cure?
With reasons enough to endure?
Sure, you never wish to shut the door…
To care much less and want no more…
I understand the fight you give
As anyone who wants to live.
Don’t let them look you in the eye
When lies are all that get you by. I understand…
You wont admit, but I’m getting close.
The emptiness never lets go.
You play your part. It takes you far away
From this ache in your soul…
And I understand the fight you give
As anyone who wants to live.
Don’t let them look you in the eye
These lies are all that get you by. I understand…
Truth you never leave behind
Shadow awaits the fallen night
I know your pain. I feel the cold.
The emptiness never lets go.
Don’t you forget how hard you try.
Again you rise. You WILL survive.
Don’t you forget…
Truth you never leave behind.
Shadow awaits the fallen night
To cover all and quiet need.
I am your soul set free.
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11. |
Look Into the Mirror
02:44
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I think true, it all begins with anger.
Look into the mirror. Admit you hate her.
Even with a reason known, you continue on alone
The knowing won’t bring you in from the cold.
I think right, God why not take it all?
Tear apart these wings and let me fall.
Exhaust the ways I cope.
Please end my endless hope.
Reclaim what little remains of my soul.
Look into the mirror.
Admit you hate her.
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You're okay. Be kind. Quiet your mind.
After everything you have been through
You are fine. Just fine.
Of course not perfect, but for this not worth any less.
Practice careful judgement of self.
Her voice should never threaten death.
Sure, we an trust another storm will come.
And loss -further devastation.
Although shaken loose, you survive.
You walk away ever single time.
It can take one soft breeze, all the breath a flame needs
To regain life. A moment of ease is all the chance you
Need to decide. Please stay alive. Decide.
Stay alive. Please stay.
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Allyson Marie Cincinnati, Ohio
Allyson is a self taught musician / singer-songwriter who has written and produced her work independently since 2007.
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