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Singled Out
00:35
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Moment to Moment
04:00
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Moment to moment I’m covering my eyes,
But the visions still arise.
Those feared uncertainties of life.
In their rational pattern, there speaks an enemy.
It gives the beat rhythm to keep.
Despite everything, keep breathing. Keep breathing.
Keep breathing…
Why shouldn't I mind such pain? I was lied to.
It won’t go away. Shouldn’t I mind such pain?
I was lied to. It won’t go away. Go away. Go away…
Opportunity will come when I’ve been beaten just enough.
Just enough…
A desperate soul be once again
Upon the edge of hopelessness…
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3. |
That Be the Day
03:56
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Your fortune is a crying shame.
You know from where you came.
You got to keep your names and you got to keep your ways.
Nothing you wouldn’t take from me and mine.
We know you wish the rest of us would die.
Wouldn’t that be the day?
None of us asked to be part of your story.
Never asked to be the shade upon your glory,
But there is history and so much blood.
You’ve never owned up to the wrong you’ve done.
The evidence can’t be erased from view.
My very life here is proof.
And isn’t that truly why you hate?
Centuries distance doesn’t turn the page.
But oh, wouldn’t that be the day? Oh wouldn’t that be the day?
Nothing you wouldn’t take from me and mine.
We know you wish the rest of us would die.
Oh, wouldn’t that be the day?
Oh, wouldn’t that be the day?
Centuries distance doesn’t turn the page.
Oh, wouldn’t that be the day?
But you’ll never get your way.
You’ll never get your way.
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4. |
No Saving You Now
04:12
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Newcomers line up to be chosen.
Expect to be made the token.
Unaware how they’ll be broken.
Good luck to you my friend.
The structural torment I know
Will doubtlessly grow on the rest.
Good luck to you my friend.
With their eyes so stuck on the page,
And Masters so stuck in their ways,
Not caring at all for the outrage
Toward everything they say.
This unmoving, unfeeling disgrace
I wake up to everyday.
My God, there is no saving any of you now.
I put all my faith in the flames
As the world burns down.
No one tries for a way out.
I put all my faith in the flames
As the world burns down.
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5. |
Nothing New
04:55
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Endless reaching.
Elusive perfection.
Try harder. It pulls me
In the wrong direction.
Ruin the good with effortless grace
And find no use in what remains.
I learn to love the bitter taste
And suffer the bleed.
Nothing is safe.
Nothing is safe.
What is life here when everything falls through?
To feel good that I tried, but still be no one to you?
My insignificance is nothing new.
The years that mean anything at all are few.
And I’ve learned to know and love this pain.
This reoccurring loss of faith.
Loss of faith…
How the darkness grew.
At every turn in view.
How the darkness grew.
At every turn in view.
My insignificance is nothing new.
At every turn in view.
And all I believe to be true.
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6. |
Grief
04:35
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For you, I will keep myself tightly chained
With ever sharpening self-hate
Held close in ready blades.
Held close in ready blades.
I am simply too sorry to
Allow the shame to hide.
Killed is every single thought
Of warm, forgiving light.
The clear path I walked upon
Dissolves in tears of grief.
And I don’t want to heal
Or reemerge so changed or free.
I am simply too sorry to
Allow the shame to hide.
Killed is every single thought
Of warm, forgiving light.
For you, I will keep myself tightly chained
With ever sharpening self-hate
Held close in ready blades.
Held close in ready blades.
I am simply too sorry to
Allow the shame to hide.
Killed is every single thought
Of warm, forgiving light.
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7. |
Unlike a Seed
03:33
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Every time they point it out and let me know,
It eats away at my soul.
Hearing how far it is I still have to go
This reminding is a constant blow.
I fail at life and have no more fight
With my heart buried deep within the ash.
And unlike a seed with all future, no past,
It welcomes decay at long last.
For help, I never would just ask.
You know, I never I could just ask.
Old friend, don’t say you understand.
Look at your life then look at mine.
There is no honest way you can.
So go on, be grateful it’s out of your hands.
I saw this coming. I never stood a chance.
For help I don’t bother to ask.
I won’t bother to ask.
And unlike a seed with all future, no past,
I welcome decay at long last.
For help, I never would just ask.
You know, I never could just ask.
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8. |
Expect the Worst
00:42
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9. |
The Wrong Goes On
05:17
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Time keep going. Love us less and less.
The gain, the growth of moments don’t matter in the end.
Endure as you must, with eyes and mouth sewn shut.
Even if you could scream your pain, no one here listens.
It goes on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
And the sleepless nights are long.
Never worth the battles won.
Like death in Spring, the unexpected frost,
Everyday now carries the weight of loss.
How many of us struggle to stay?
How many hope beyond the last day?
It goes on and on. I see the soul has gone.
On and on and on…
With enough time I would aim toward self the gun.
Watch as every good thing dies. All there is left to trust.
So time keep going. Love us less and less.
The gain, the growth of moments don’t matter in the end.
They don’t matter in the end.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
So time keep going. Love us less and less.
The gain, the growth of moments don’t matter in the end.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
On and on and on. The wrong goes on and on.
On and on… On and on... On and on…on and on…
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10. |
The Hope You Sell
04:20
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They say it with such conviction.
“You matter. You are made of light.”
It’s the hero saving praise they are after.
Please, don’t waste my time.
I hear “Be strong, you have to fight!”
“You have a purpose to define!”
Pretty sayings. Paid for lies.
I blame myself when I lose the fight.
Where are you when despair is all we have left?
When without belief in the hope you sell?
Get angry…Say we’re beyond all help.
Get angry…We are just as overwhelmed.
We swing so close to death.
We swing so close to death.
One starts out a loser in this game.
Chance after chance lost my faith.
So maybe life isn’t the most important thing.
Maybe love won’t be what guides my way.
One starts out a loser in this game.
Chance after chance lost my faith.
One starts out a loser
In this game.
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11. |
I Write You Off
04:26
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I’ve done a bad thing.
I tore into the truth.
Setting flames.
I burn it through.
Losing hope the way I do…
Losing hope the way I do…
You say ‘Lighten up. It all works out in the end.’
I'm no good to you if I can’t show up and pretend.
But I have no room to forgive what it takes.
The darkness carries me in strong embrace.
You think it’s easy. Just tell yourself ‘don’t quit’
Try until you find your fit.
Think your way to happiness.
Just repeat, repeat ‘you are so blessed.’
Get away from me with all that talk.
I shut you down and write you off.
My happiness doesn’t want what’s best,
Doesn’t want more time here, more regrets.
It’s for whatever brings forth the end.
What’s best, bring forth the end.
My happiness doesn’t want what’s best.
Doesn't want more time here, more regrets.
No more regrets.
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12. |
Final Say
04:27
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Hate all you, all you want to hate,
All you, all you want to hate.
I hear you and it’s all noise to me now.
Speak your unwelcome voice,
I choose leaving you out.
Because I know what your kind do.
Say you're here to help me, help me
But you give nothing, nothing of use.
My worth is not set by your conditions.
I am with joy no matter who listens.
Listen.
I know it’s about what you think you can take.
Any good of a soul you grab to break,
But I won’t be scared away.
I recognize my strength.
Hate all you want to hate
I have the final say.
Hate all you want to hate.
Hate….all you want to hate.
Hate…all you want to hate.
Hate…I have the final say.
I hear you, poisoning and loud.
Nothing I can use and I choose
Leaving you out.
Leaving you out.
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13. |
Blood Worthless
04:18
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Mother, don’t move to please.
Father, brothers, get mad. Leave!
What we are can stay broke.
I love you, but I don’t.
I don’t… I don’t….
Dear sister I never had but grieve.
Just like every friend I could not keep.
The danger I am up close.
Feel blessed you never got to know.
Same goes for my missing other half.
The small chance of you never lasts
As I have no heart to hold.
The inside is cruel, ice cold. Ice cold…
Good abandoned this soul in fear.
A shame it is I’m still here.
A waste of life so clear. Why am I still here?
Why am I still here?
Why am I still here?
Why am I still here?
Why am I still here?
I have no heart to hold.
The inside is cruel, ice cold.
The danger I am up close.
Feel blessed you’ll never get to know.
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14. |
I Have a Place
03:22
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Today came from a cool, clear night.
Full of stars and full of moon light.
Yesterday I dreamed.
The remembering, so sweet.
Today is where I am meant to be.
I feel the caressing wind.
Soft, warm sunshine I breathe in.
A love so long unspoken
Seeps beneath my skin.
And I know it’s true.
I have a place here. I do!
Even if people don’t want me
And I deem myself unworthy,
The so long unspoken is true.
I have a place in this world. I do.
I do.
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15. |
A Quiet Leave
03:50
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This season opened the door
The moment you can handle no more.
These winds cut around corners.
Cold creeps into the bone.
You remember it knows those best whom are alone.
You’re here alone.
All alone.
Take comfort as night falls.
Death is all your own.
Quiet leaving, forgotten soul
Death is all your own.
You’re here alone.
All alone.
Quiet leaving, forgotten soul.
Death is all your own.
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16. |
Life Is Promised Hurt
02:37
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Allyson Marie Cincinnati, Ohio
Allyson is a self taught musician / singer-songwriter who has written and produced her work independently since 2007.
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